fuck, i really wish i could just simply die, right now, no more pain, just cease to fucking exist. i can’t handle this shit anymore, that definetly is my break point and i’m trying so hard not to explode right now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i’ve been holding tears for so long now, i just wanna scream